Controlling mortice
Intro
I would like to do more with:
- Chastity and cum control
- Wearing a buttplug
- Wearing rubber gear
- Wearing tight or skimpy gear out (in warm weather)
These are things I 'self-order' myself to do occasionally, but I would like to be mentored/controlled so that the choices of what and when are taken out of my hands.
I like the idea that if someone whom I respect tells me to do something then I will do it and not want to let them down. That sort of respect needs to be developed, of course.
Limitations
There are various limitations with this sort of control:
- For me, chastity and cum control are not about going as long as possible without cumming. I quite like the idea of 'feast and famine' - a while restricted and a while not (or controlled in a different way) - although my ideas on this stuff will develop as I do them
- I've not gone for long in a chastity device - never reached a week. I'm happy to experiment and work up to stuff, but anyone who tells me to lock up for a month from the beginning won't get far
- I find it a lot easier doing cum control through willpower, although it's a different experience
- Cum control can involve various 'levels' - see Chastity_device_use_ideas#Sub_control_levels - I have in the past played where someone has sent me a message saying "code red now" or "code green for 10 minutes, then yellow"
- Wearing a buttplug can be 'hit and miss' - sometimes my bowels 'reject' one after 10 minutes or so, and sometimes I've put a plug in early evening and kept it in until morning
- I have numerous plugs in varying materials. Most are 1 1/4 inches diameter, I have difficulty getting anything larger into me. Some of them fall out easily, some stay in quite securely
- I find it reasonably easy to wear rubber shorts or jock hidden under clothing in most situations
As for durations... a week of cum control is quite a commitment in my mind (especially if using a cb), and if I'm trying out a new mentor/controller I'd like to build up the understanding between us before we get to those sorts of times. Otherwise there's a risk I would quickly wonder why I'm doing it and give up unless I have the mental connection to drive me to keep going at it.
Not into
Of course, there's various stuff I'm not into:
- Not into any sort of pain play like spanking
- My nipples aren't at all erogenous for me
Combined control
Another type of control is combining restrictions, such as:
- Not allowed to cum unless buttplugged
- Not allowed to touch cock unless it's been locked in a cb for at least 2 hours
- Have to edge an hour before cumming
Diary
Tuesday, 22nd Jan 2013
I had locked myself into a CB6000s since mid-Sunday when at about 7pm Paul ordered me to remove it for the night and relock in the morning before 8:30am, and not to cum.
I was allowed to touch my cock so I edged myself quite a bit, always being sure not to go too far and cum. This proved quite frustrating! My cock was more sensitive than usual - that might have been due to not cumming for 2 days or being locked for 2 days or knowing I wasn't allowed to cum.
At 9pm I put in a buttplug which only increased the danger of cumming during edging. That stayed in until 5am - I could have kept it in all night.
I wasn't edging all the time, I started and stopped through the evening. I got quite close to cumming a few times, and once felt the start of the pumping feeling, but it didn't continue and nothing came out - close call.
At 8:27am I locked on my Steelworxx Steelheart (Paul specified I should lock up but didn't specify that it should be the same device).