Controlling mortice

Intro

I would like to do more with:

• Chastity and cum control
• Wearing a buttplug
• Wearing rubber gear
• Wearing tight or skimpy gear out (in warm weather)

These are things I 'self-order' myself to do occasionally, but I would like to be mentored/controlled so that the choices of what and when are taken out of my hands.

I like the idea that if someone whom I respect tells me to do something then I will do it and not want to let them down. That sort of respect needs to be developed, of course.

There are lots of variants and other toys that I'm into, including:

• Wearing a ball stretcher
• Having to wear thong/jock/no underwear
• Keeping a neck chain padlocked on
• Long term in cockring
• Locking cockring, which is quite tight so tends to ruin orgasms
• Short times (eg an evening) wearing a device with internal spikes such as a Kali's Teeth Bracelet

The Deal

I will publish what kink stuff I get up to in the diary below. My controller can monitor this then at times take control and order me to do other things, possibly as punishment if I have not been kinky enough or just because they want to.

This means when I choose to do kinky stuff it will be not just for the sake of it but to please my controller and possibly avoid punishment.

I think I would like to be under control about half of the time.

I understand that punishment is likely to involve cum control, either being locked in a chastity device or not being allowed to touch my cock.

Limitations

There are various limitations with this sort of control:

1. For me, chastity and cum control are not about going as long as possible without cumming. I quite like the idea of 'feast and famine' - a while restricted and a while not (or controlled in a different way) - although my ideas on this stuff will develop as I do them
2. I've not gone for long in a chastity device - never reached a week. I'm happy to experiment and work up to stuff, but anyone who tells me to lock up for a month from the beginning won't get far
3. I find it a lot easier doing cum control through willpower, although it's a different experience
4. Cum control can involve various 'levels' - see Chastity_device_use_ideas#Sub_control_levels - I have in the past played where someone has sent me a message saying "code red now" or "code green for 10 minutes, then yellow"
5. Wearing a buttplug can be 'hit and miss' - sometimes my bowels 'reject' one after 10 minutes or so, and sometimes I've put a plug in early evening and kept it in until morning
6. I have numerous plugs in varying materials. Most are 1 1/4 inches diameter, I have difficulty getting anything larger into me. Some of them fall out easily, some stay in quite securely
7. I find it reasonably easy to wear rubber shorts or jock hidden under clothing in most situations

As for durations... a week of cum control is quite a commitment in my mind (especially if using a cb), and if I'm trying out a new mentor/controller I'd like to build up the understanding between us before we get to those sorts of times. Otherwise there's a risk I would quickly wonder why I'm doing it and give up unless I have the mental connection to drive me to keep going at it.

Not into

Of course, there's various stuff I'm not into:

• Not into any sort of pain play like spanking
• My nipples aren't at all erogenous for me
• Don't like 'punishments' which are just for the sake of punishment, like standing in a corner or writing lines

Combined control

Another type of control is combining restrictions, such as:

• Not allowed to cum unless buttplugged
• Not allowed to touch cock unless it's been locked in a cb for at least 2 hours
• Have to edge an hour before cumming

Diary

Tuesday, 22nd Jan 2013

I had locked myself into a CB6000s since mid-Sunday when at about 7pm Paul ordered me to remove it for the night and relock in the morning before 8:30am, and not to cum.

I was allowed to touch my cock so I edged myself quite a bit, always being sure not to go too far and cum. This proved quite frustrating! My cock was more sensitive than usual - that might have been due to not cumming for 2 days or being locked for 2 days or knowing I wasn't allowed to cum.

At 9pm I put in a buttplug which only increased the danger of cumming during edging. That stayed in until 5am - I could have kept it in all night.

I wasn't edging all the time, I started and stopped through the evening. I got quite close to cumming a few times, and once felt the start of the pumping feeling, but it didn't continue and nothing came out - close call.

At 8:27am I locked on my Steelworxx Steelheart (Paul specified I should lock up but didn't specify that it should be the same device).

I've done some of that before, but the experience was definitely increased by the fact that I had been told not to cum and I had someone to answer to if I did.