Controlling mortice
Intro
I would like to do more with:
- Chastity and cum control
- Wearing a buttplug
- Wearing rubber gear
- Wearing tight or skimpy gear out (in warm weather)
These are things I 'self-order' myself to do occasionally, but I would like to be mentored/controlled so that the choices of what and when are taken out of my hands.
I like the idea that if someone whom I respect tells me to do something then I will do it and not want to let them down. That sort of respect needs to be developed, of course.
Variants
There are lots of variants and other toys that I'm into, including:
- Wearing a ball stretcher
- Having to wear thong/jock/no underwear
- Keeping a neck chain padlocked on
- Long term in cockring
- Locking cockring, which is quite tight so tends to ruin orgasms
- Short times (eg an evening) wearing a device with internal spikes such as a Kali's Teeth Bracelet
- Use of 'deep heat' type cream
- Lycra leggings under jeans
- Any underwear from my underwear browser at http://gallery.mortice.org/cgi-bin/uw.cgi
- Can only touch cock using rubber gloves
Another type of control is combining restrictions, such as:
- Not allowed to cum unless buttplugged
- Not allowed to touch cock unless it's been locked in a cb for at least 2 hours
- Have to edge a while before cumming
The Deal
I will publish what kink stuff I get up to in the diary below. My controller can monitor this then at times take control and order me to do other things, possibly as punishment if I have not been kinky enough or just because they want to.
This means when I choose to do kinky stuff it will be not just for the sake of it but to please my controller and possibly avoid punishment.
I think I would like to be under control about half of the time.
I understand that punishment is likely to involve cum control, either being locked in a chastity device or not being allowed to touch my cock.
Limitations
There are various limitations with this sort of control:
- For me, chastity and cum control are not about going as long as possible without cumming. I quite like the idea of 'feast and famine' - a while restricted and a while not (or controlled in a different way) - although my ideas on this stuff will develop as I do them
- I've not gone for long in a chastity device - never reached a week. I'm happy to experiment and work up to stuff, but anyone who tells me to lock up for a month from the beginning won't get far
- I find it a lot easier doing cum control through willpower, although it's a different experience
- Cum control can involve various 'levels' - see Chastity_device_use_ideas#Sub_control_levels - I have in the past played where someone has sent me a message saying "code red now" or "code green for 10 minutes, then yellow"
- Wearing a buttplug can be 'hit and miss' - sometimes my bowels 'reject' one after 10 minutes or so, and sometimes I've put a plug in early evening and kept it in until morning
- I have numerous plugs in varying materials. Most are 1 1/4 inches diameter, I have difficulty getting anything larger into me. Some of them fall out easily, some stay in quite securely
- I find it reasonably easy to wear rubber shorts or jock hidden under clothing in most situations
As for durations... a week of cum control is quite a commitment in my mind (especially if using a cb), and if I'm trying out a new mentor/controller I'd like to build up the understanding between us before we get to those sorts of times. Otherwise there's a risk I would quickly wonder why I'm doing it and give up unless I have the mental connection to drive me to keep going at it.
Not into
Of course, there's various stuff I'm not into:
- Not into any sort of pain play like spanking
- My nipples aren't at all erogenous for me
- Don't like 'punishments' which are just for the sake of punishment, like standing in a corner or writing lines
Diary
Wednesday, 23rd January 2013
I had locked myself into a CB6000s since mid-Sunday when at about 7pm Paul ordered me to remove it for the night and relock in the morning before 8:30am, and not to cum.
I was allowed to touch my cock so I edged myself quite a bit, always being sure not to go too far and cum. This proved quite frustrating! My cock was more sensitive than usual - that might have been due to not cumming for 2 days or being locked for 2 days or knowing I wasn't allowed to cum.
At 9pm I put in a buttplug which only increased the danger of cumming during edging. That stayed in until 5am - I could have kept it in all night.
I wasn't edging all the time, I started and stopped through the evening. I got quite close to cumming a few times, and once felt the start of the pumping feeling, but it didn't continue and nothing came out - close call.
At 8:27am Wednesday I locked on my Steelworxx Steelheart (Paul specified I should lock up but didn't specify that it should be the same device).
I've done some of that before, but the experience was definitely increased by the fact that I had been told not to cum and I had someone to answer to if I did.
Sunday 27th January 2013
On Friday evening I had a brief conversation with Paul, who wanted me to stay locked for a week but I didn't want to, so he told me to unlock and cum on cam but he had to leave before I did. He said I should relock after a day.
I cum twice that evening before going out in rubber shorts and cockring, then cum twice over the course of the Saturday. I took his 'relock after a day' to mean out for Saturday then locked for Sunday.
I woke horny on Sunday but didn't touch my hard cock. I locked on a PA5000 before going out for the afternoon. I shall stay locked in it until at least I go to a munch on Monday evening, but have not discussed how much longer.
It was not my intention when I started this to spend all the time locked so will try to negotiate something - I've added the section on 'the deal' which comments about me being controlled about half the time.
Tuesday 29th January 2013
I wore my PA5000 for most of Sunday but started getting a stinging feeling around the piercing so thought I should swap device. I put on my large ebay cage which I slept in.
On Monday morning I swapped to CB6000s to wear to work, however during the morning I developed an irritating sore around the back ring. Fortunately I'd taken keys to work so was able to remove it.
In the evening I went to a munch so wore rubber shorts+tee and steel butt plug from 7:30pm to 11:30pm.
On Tuesday I cum in bed in the morning (which turned out to be ruined, not deliberately) and again at lunchtime.
Tuesday evening Paul asked if I wanted to be re-secured, I said yes, so he instructed I should be locked until a club I'm going to on Friday, and at the club I should be buttplugged but not locked.
Friday 1st February 2013
I wore medium sized ebay cage Tuesday evening then large ebay cage overnight but didn't sleep well. For Wednesday, Thursday and Friday I wore the medium one to work but didn't sleep in any device (no touching though).
Friday night I went out to club in rubber teeshirt, rubber jeans, steel buttplug, steel cockring, padlocked neckchain.
Sunday 3rd February 2013
On Saturday morning after the club I cum twice in the hotel then twice at home. On Sunday I cum 3 times before going to Heros skintight club, still wearing the padlocked neckchain from Friday night.
Tuesday 5th February
I cum twice on Monday, then on Tuesday lunchtime (while trying to cum again) I got chatting online to Paul. He instructed me to edge myself for 1/2 hour twice in the evening, then 6 times on Wednesday (I have day off work) but not to cum until instructed. He also ordered me to change my underwear for the afternoon of work to a thong (he initially said no underwear but I tried and it made too big a bulge in my loose work trousers).
I had already edge myself for an hour on Tuesday evening when Paul came online and instructed me to edge some more on camera, off and on for about half an hour in total). I then edged for another half an hour before going to bed, making around 2 hours edging in total.
Wednesday 6th February
I edged for 1/2 hour 5 times - once in bed, twice in the morning, twice in the afternoon. That means I've spent 4 1/2 hours out of the last 24 hours edging, and not cum once.
Then edged once in the evening to fulfil orders. Paul then said I could cum, but I edged for another 1/2 hour before finally shooting lots :)
I also took pictures of 73 items of underwear I have, so others can select what I should wear.
Working on an 'underwear browser' at http://gallery.mortice.org/cgi-bin/uw.cgi
Tuesday 12th February
Over the weekend I was at a BDSM Bisexuals event, so got an opportunity to dress up - afternoon in rubber jeans+teeshirt, evening in cb and rubber shortie suit+jock, next day in zentai.
Monday afternoon I wore plug to work, Tuesday evening I was in KTB for 5 hours, and have been ordered by Paul to wear cb to work tomorrow.
